Oh I could go through all life's troubles singing, Turning earth's night to day, If self were not so fast around me, clinging To all I do or say. My very thoughts are selfish, always building Mean castles in the air; I use my love of others for a gilding To make myself look fair. I fancy all the world engross'd with judging My merit or my blame; Its warmest praise seems an ungracious grudging Of praise which I might claim. In youth or age, by city, wood, or mountain, Self is forgotten never; Where'er we tread, it gushes like a fountain, And its waters flow for ever. Alas! no speed in life can snatch us wholly Out of self's hateful sight; And it keeps step, whene'er we travel slowly, And sleeps with us at night. O miserable omnipresence, stretching Over all time and space, How have I run from thee, yet found thee reaching The goal in every race! The opiate balms of grace may haply still thee, Deep in my nature lying; For I may hardly hope, alas! to kill thee, Save by the act of dying. O LORD! that I could waste my life for others, With no ends of my own, That I could pour myself into my brothers, And live for them alone! Such was the life Thou livedst; self abjuring, Thine own pains never easing, Our burdens bearing, our just doom enduring, A life without self-pleasing! |